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Originally Posted by dinonz
Oh - I know. But I don't think that's about changing my outlook per se - it's just the way I am. I don't do it deliberately, but at work our system is "my baby". If anyone calls my baby ugly... 
I guess some people are emotional, some are not. I can't see how to change that. |
I was the same way a few years back. I'm a very passionate person. For those that believe in such things, I've told that I'm an empath. I have this strange ability to feel other peoples emotions and read them quite well....this made me a demon when I was in sales. I don't know, maybe everyone is able to do this. Just a few years ago my entire life fell apart. Those closest to me were the ones that the did not a little, not some but all of the damage; all irreparable. It took a few years for me to rebuild myself mentally but my kindhearted, always wanting to help others blindly and take people at face value self died. I'm not saying I'm mean spirited now, I still care about people, but my ability to become emotionally attached just simply isn't there anymore. I don't take it as a negative thing though, in fact quite the adverse. From my experiences most change doesn't come from just waking up one day and deciding to do it, it comes from life altering events that change us and then we simply have to learn how to take the best from it and move on.
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Originally Posted by Bayerische Motoren Werke
Not_Judy MKSixer Never_Enough OnerDriver BOYS HELP
slight change of plans, i went to bloomington because she reminded me i wanted to look at a car (complete sham but played along, sat in a F90 M5 so it was nice). drove there, met up with her, she walked me around campus, i took her in the library because the structure looked extremely interesting. spent a decent bit of time in there looking at books (im literally like a child, anything and everything can be interesting). she said me running from book to book with a huge smile on my face was cute, i'll take it  time came for me to leave because 1h drive and i have school tomorrow, dropping her off she points me to her car and she has a tattoo "artist" bumper sticker so i ask if she has any, she invites me in to "show the tattoos" , we chill and i drive back home.
NOW - couple of redflags, anyone know who sylvia plath is? walking through the library she saw a book of her's, said that plath is her from (whenever plath was alive), when asked why said she won't burden me this soon.
2- talking about drugs and whatnot, she mentioned the only thing holding her from doing shrooms or psychedelics in general was her "psychological past". this did NOT sit well with me.
3- she has no street smarts whatsoever, i like making stupid jokes and giving shit to people for no reason. literally pulled dad jokes, she didn't understand them...
4- she mentioned this when we first met too, didn't think much of it (wasnt sober enough tbh), but today also this came up: she says she needs to know every single small detail about someone to call them their friend. even acknowledged that this was "emotionally taxing", when asked why she still does it she said she's just being dramatic
im in need of help because idk where to go from here - relationship was kinda in the books, now it's completely off but i need help diagnosing if it's worth continuing hooking up or just running for the border 
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Here's my take. I'm a bit different than most. I like to get inside people's heads and see what makes them tick; not for manipulation purposes but I like to study people for my own strange psychological reasons. I try to learn something from everyone I meet and get to know well and potentially take something I've learned from them and incorporate in my life potentially.
DO NOT GET SERIOUS with this girl. I personally would hang with her and delve deeper into who she is. Who knows, maybe she is the one that needs to learn something from you in order to make her life better or see things from a different perspective. I think in today's society we are so quick to judge and run the other way that it prevents us from making solid connections with other people. I've been an artist since I was young and I am a firm believer than any artist, musician or the like that is worth their salt is a little, if not totally bat shit crazy. Some of my favorite people are far from what I would call sane or label as a "normal person." I wouldn't call this done, but I also wouldn't get involved to a point to where you can't find the escape route.....quickly.